Approximately 8 years ago my doctor suggested implanting a Vagus Nerve Stimulator (VNS) as an adjunctive treatment for my intractable epilepsy. Often referred to as a “pacemaker for the brain”, this is a treatment which delivers regular electrical impulses to the brain via the vagus nerve. Because of my fear of surgery (not to mention any kind of needles!), I was too afraid to go through with it. Finally in 2012, fed up with life, I agreed. The procedure itself, along with the positive results, excited me. Previously my seizures would bring me a ton of anxiety the next day, laying in bed with a jumbled head and shaking in the sheets. The day after that I would wake up crying in my sleep, the pillow completely wet with tears. Now that was gone! I’d still have my seizures, but some of the side effects had greatly improved. I was told that the VNS would improve over time. Unfortunately, I waited. And waited. And waited. After the initial benefits, there would be no more. The seizures were still there, yes easier to recover from, but my optimism dwindled over time.